unhappiness

why i become more unhappy...
i hav never faced this kind of emptiness before... so lonely, no listener, no one can go through thick and thin with me... very depressed n wanna cry everyday...
no one can understand what i think n de first impression dat i giv ppl is not other than stress!!!
no money, no helps, i like a plank that floating on the sea, i hav no goal, i dunno fight 4 wat... i can't even suffer de discriminating views of other since i am i, a person who r too concious about her face, and touturing herself...
and now i back to the origin again, i miss home, i miss my family, i miss the food in Malaysia, i miss the shopping in Malaysia...
"miss you, miss you"...wuwu

Finally...

Finally...my notebook is fixed...
Finally...our scul orientation is started...huh...
dunno y, i'm still unhappy... bcuz not confident enough 2 stay at scul? (as ppl around can speak english fluently) bcuz i hav no holiday to back home but hav to stay at hospital 4 my clinical attachment? (even i can't back home on CNY, mayb) or i still haven get my student pass as all de student already gotten it (except 4 our scholar...)
our scul is quite big n i think i will totally lost if i hang around alone, de life here unlike university, attending 2 de CCA is compulsory n we may not as free as de student in U...
haiz...
de scul i is 2 big n i'm going 2 faint edi, if we want 2 correct our personal detail, we r required 2 go to X block, get our student pass then we hav 2 go 2 Y block n so on...haiz...
2morrow we r needed 2 attend de camp held by health science...hoping dat camp will b enjoyable...

What a high expenses of the textbooks!!!

it was almost a week dat i stay in Singapore, the longer i stay, the clearer i aware of the situation where i am standing...
haiz... de expenses in quite high, no, is very high until i am unable 2 afford my textbooks fees...
wah...NA is killing me!!!
we hav 2 purchase our own pda, own textbook... where can i find dis large amount of money?
who want 2 b my sponsor??? haha
worrying...

Third day in Singapore

The pain of my whole body has proved somethings- i am very tired, exhausted... i had carried many heavy luggage of mine, l had walked a very long way (to n fro of our house and supermarket)...
my roomates are not bad, all of us are come from different state, some of them are from ipoh, bintulu, kuching, penang... however, i wonder why i still feel spiritually empty...as if nobady can truely understand what i feel, nor accompany me everlastingly here...
Today, i finally realize that the place i lived is not in town...haha... it was only one supermarket here, that is why it is always getting crowded... n there is nither wild cats nor wild dogs here...a country that is very...clean n with many high rise building
at here, we hav to do all the domestic work , juz like we were washing our blanket and pillowcase this morning. Eventhough i don't know how to cook, i hav 2 giv it a try, otherwise all of us may suffer hunger!!! i think we may lack of nutrition because we kept eating junk food n fast food for our three meals this two days...
Missing my frens n family, have you all been well?
lonely, i'm so lonely, i have nobody... huh...

If you didn't said, how would i know

Sometimes, if u didn't said, i won't now, n at the end we will end up as two parallel line...
once, i keen for the man who has a mind of his own, but when i hav encountered u unexpectedly, it had comes to a way of what is truely important to me, which is being respected...
hoping the long distance can let us be more rasional.
if u not dare to tell, u will never know the answer n u would never get what u want

The beginner of the new environment...

The secound day i am on Singapore, a clean place dat leave a deep impression 4 me...
Many things dat needed me to settle down, but lukily i can get the help of others, i think i am the lucky one if comapare to my sister hu had 2 settle down everything by her own (off course, her friends too)
The thing which is annoying me the most is my handphone is blasted after dropped down in the airport...n it will switch off suddently, causing me unable to call back home...huh...
The english standard at here is quite hight, n i was quite worry n not confident enough (even the Mc donald old waitress could speak fluently than me >-<
I hav a question 2 ask, why is my family n fren who are closer to me do not online when i am online, so how can i contact u all?
The expenses in Singapore is quite high, i am worry about the three meals of the day...
i hav 2 attend the freshman orientation camp on 14-16 april, dunno whether dis is a good news or not?) Why do other scul students dun hav 2 do so but we must, haha, u might not believe, dis is de first time dat i attend de camp, hope dat it will be enjoyable...ya
n my dear friends n family, when will u online? XD